| To Those in the Know |
[Saturday, July 18th, 2009 @ 5:22pm] |
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I was trying not to write it today, but avoidance never helps, does it?
Thomas says they took him to get to me, Stephie because she was with him, and Scarlett because she found them. Apparently they knew I would come for him, but by the time I did, no one of rank or importance was there to action whatever plot they had for me. Which is fortuitous, but worrying. Because when they took Thomas, they did not expect to get so lucky. Apparently they tried to burn him for heresy, but as we all know, his particular situation means that his body can withstand being burned, even if it causes pain. He can, basically, keep on burning forever. Or until he disappeared. And they managed to film this very phenomenon and send it to the Vatican.
They now, once again, believe me to be the Antichrist, and apparently Thomas is my lover or handmaiden, or whatever in the fuck. They went after my family, so they know they can't die. ...most of them. And they have gone after Thomas.
We need to be careful. Again. What joy.
Thomas says they repeated the performance for an Archbishop. He didn't catch the name, he just saw the robes. And after that, they left him burning until Samson and Svetlana got him down. And that was nearly a day and a half.
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| Filtered to Svetlana |
[Saturday, July 18th, 2009 @ 3:46pm] |
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How are you? Are you okay?
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| Friends Only |
[Saturday, July 18th, 2009 @ 3:39pm] |
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My daughter just went out to the movies with her friends, dressed like a baby prostitute. Of course, she informs me that this is fine because she is fourteen and she can handle herself. That might be true, but I plan to deal with anyone who tries to handle her, I'll tell you fucking what.
And Caleb has now decided he is terrified because someone at karate class told him there's a skeleton inside him. Don't ask me how he managed to avoid this knowledge until now, but he seems to believe that his skeleton has it in for him and it's got a mind of it's own which it will use to rip through his skin and attack him. It's really quite morbid. He's cowering with Aly while she tries to reassure him that his bones are not made for mutiny. Meanwhile, Anna seems to be stealing all of Lydia's baby prostitute clothes and trying them on, and that just reminds me that soon I will have two teenage girls... What in the world am I going to do then!?
Oh, and this afternoon, Little Thomas tried to eat my watch. Thankfully, he did not succeed, though Anna continues to find it amusing to make time travel jokes...
Sometimes, being a father, all you can do is stand back and watch as it unfolds, occasionally uttering 'huh'. Not that I would ever trade it. Not on your life.
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| To Those in the Know |
[Saturday, July 11th, 2009 @ 4:15pm] |
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Oh god, stop dying!!
I am referring to myself there. And nothing so insidious as the last time. I may have fallen on a pair of gardening shears only to discover puncturing lungs is very painful. I was unconscious the last time I had a sucking chest wound...
I blame Dorian, as he was probably the last person to be in my shed for any stretch of time, because we all know I do not garden. And it's fun to blame Dorian.
Don't even ask what I was doing in the shed, because I have not a friggin' clue in the world.
At least I disposed of the fatal hazard out there...
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| Filtered to the Littletons, Renee and Damon opened up to Tasha |
[Thursday, July 9th, 2009 @ 1:50pm] |
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I'm very sorry to tell you this, but Julian was here this afternoon and he broke in to my office and relieved me of my petty cash. It was several thousand GBP, and upon reviewing the security camera footage, we discovered he stole Joe's petty cash as well. Abby's appears to be untouched, but he's now got quite a bit of cash under his belt there. I don't think, when I ran into him in the hall, he knew I knew. He was still gone by the time we looked through everything.
If you'd like, I can send people to look for him. We can put notices out. If he's going anywhere, he'd be paying with cash which is hard to trace, but we'll do our best.
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| To Those in the Know |
[Wednesday, July 8th, 2009 @ 9:56pm] |
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Erm...is Jude perhaps somewhere other than London? If she's not, a discrete suggestion that she should be might be in order...
Fucking bollocky stupid Rolf let Jillian out to go make up for the fact that he let Amaris escape. No, it doesn't make sense to me either, but apparently he expects her to capture Amaris.
I do have to say that Jillian has made amazing steps at recovery and she has been incredible cordial to me lately. She hasn't shown any signs of aggression towards myself or the staff and maybe the fucking crazy bollocks is right and she'll be fine. She does love him and she may want to prove him right. Be that as if may, if you see her, could you do me a favour and fucking run and then give me a jingle when it's safe to do so? I'll take care of it.
For fuck's sake the fucking angel's gone senile. I could kill him. Except I can't.
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| Friends Only |
[Sunday, July 5th, 2009 @ 8:25pm] |
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My wife has apparently decided that what I really needed to do was to go see a circus with clowns and dancing animals in it. I am terrified of clowns and dancing animals. Sure, most of it was to benefit the children, but she said she wanted me to have fun too. And THEN the clown re-enacted a terrifying memory from my childhood when he sprayed me with water from a flower. In my mind-numbing fear of clowns and germs (you don't know where that water's been!) I screamed, "watch your fucking pansy piss you red-nosed cunt!"
And then there was silence and the audience looked at me like I had just committed murder in front of all of them and I had to leave. Apparently, if you want me to use language in front of my children which I most certainly do not utter under normal circumstances, and behaviour I would consider abominable for the most part, just put me face to face with a clown.
I am so much fun...
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| To Those in the Know |
[Wednesday, July 1st, 2009 @ 9:27pm] |
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Rolf thinks the Templar tried to poison my family.
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| Filtered to David |
[Saturday, June 27th, 2009 @ 3:32pm] |
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Did you seriously have a threesome with my cousin and her wife!?
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| To Those in the Know |
[Saturday, June 27th, 2009 @ 12:16pm] |
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I love the new Dream Theater album! Black Clouds and Silver Linings is incredible! I was listening to it all morning and now I've got in on repeat in the office.
( I love these lyrics )
Dream Theater so gets me.
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| To Those in the Know |
[Saturday, June 20th, 2009 @ 5:21pm] |
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( Svetlana is Beautiful )
I'm back from Ghost Central. Don't want to talk about it. We met an interesting family and barely made it out.
If I never don't see a ghost again, it will be too soon. (Except you, Mummy...)
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| Filtered to Svetlana |
[Monday, June 15th, 2009 @ 7:37pm] |
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Svetlana, you didn't say anything and I'm worried.
Are you alright? About what I saw in the vision?
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| To Those in the Know |
[Monday, June 15th, 2009 @ 1:58pm] |
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I need someone to get Thomas for me. It's urgent. He's been gone for two weeks and that'll have to be enough. I need him.
Lavannah didn't leave, she was taken. She's somewhere in a basement. I had a vision...the place is full of ghosts and it's all she can hear. It's a town called Old Wildborough. Completely abandoned.
And Aurelia is there too. I don't know how, but I saw her. If she's there with Lavannah, I don't want to think about it. I need to go after her. I need Thomas.
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| To Those in the Know |
[Sunday, June 14th, 2009 @ 10:53pm] |
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My head is still dying, but I saw Dream Theater, dammit. And John Petrucchi winked at me and James LaBrie waved. And they were incredible.
Now I can't sleep, which is most vexing.
At least I'm with it enough to say 'vexing'.
How long do you suppose the withdrawal period is when you didn't just drink beer, you drowned in it? Because if I know, I can just take a tranquiliser and sleep until then.
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| To Those in the Know |
[Wednesday, June 10th, 2009 @ 1:34pm] |
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I know what Aleric wanted. It wasn't money, it was the hospital itself.
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| To Those in the Know |
[Monday, June 8th, 2009 @ 6:08pm] |
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Joe Littleton is in my hospital. He was shot in the leg, during a break-in at his house. He'll be alright, though he's currently getting about a dozen stitches.
Apparently two men broke in and attacked Jordan. Joe had gone to drop off Aislinn and Jaida at Lavinia's (so thankfully they were not present) and only happened to return because he says he forgot his briefcase. He found one of them in the living room and managed to pull him off Jordan, but then there were guns involved. The men asked questions about me.
I've spoken to the police about it, though Paul is understandably busy at the moment. Joe had to give the men the account numbers to the hospital to keep them from hurting Jordan (which I fully condone, of course). I've changed everything now, though I don't know if they had already gotten the information they wanted. I have no idea what they were looking for, but I have an inkling as to who they were.
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| To Those in the Know |
[Saturday, June 6th, 2009 @ 8:57pm] |
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Some...arsehole dug up my sister's grave and reburied her under some broken down orphanage. I don't know why... I can't even go into it right now, but it was a big thing and we found her there...it was...horrible.
When I told Abby about it, I was at the hospital. Carys Spencer overheard, and in a well-meaning but incredibly ill move, she brought Margaret back.
My older sister is sitting in my living room, looking so much like Lydia it's terrifying. She was fourteen when she died. Lydia is fourteen. But Margaret is not fourteen anymore. She was born the same year as Thomas. She has all those years of watching behind her. She has all those years of wisdom and knowledge...she's not a teenager, she just looks like one.
I'm so very messed up over this. I didn't want to see her this way. Not Margaret.
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| To Those in the Know |
[Wednesday, June 3rd, 2009 @ 3:40pm] |
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Thomas is gone (and he's safe in The Beyond, no sign of Sacrifice). He didn't even get a chance to say hello to his wife.
I feel so badly for him. I know how it feels to be kept away, but to be like this...it has to be a million times worse.
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| To Those in the Know |
[Monday, June 1st, 2009 @ 8:00pm] |
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So I got lost the other day and I ended up finding a prostitute. Entirely on accident. She thought I was...well, she didn't think I was actually asking for directions, anyway. I bought her dinner and sent her home. Her name was Kayla, or that's what she said. She was really...sweet, actually. She has a child, and she has nowhere else to turn...
I really hate the world sometimes. I gave her my card, but I don't know if she'll call if she needs anything. Still, she knows where the hospital is now, and she said if her son was sick, she would bring him in. I told her I wouldn't charge her. I just want to take care of everyone, and I curse a great many things because I can't.
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| Friends Only |
[Friday, May 29th, 2009 @ 5:58pm] |
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My beautiful Tasha is a Sergeant. I'm so proud of her. And beyond that, I'm happy for her and incredibly and overwhelmingly moved. I love my children so much, and I'm so lucky to have every single one of them.
This post has absolutely no other reason for it than this. Just love.
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| Friends Only |
[Tuesday, May 26th, 2009 @ 3:52pm] |
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I just got called a skank by a fourteen-year-old girl who had just asked me if I thought she could be a stripper not five minutes before that! (I did not answer that question, by the way...)
This is going to amuse me for years.
Peter the skank. Oh yeah. I'm a wild one. Me and my untamed ways. Look out for me. I'm a skank. A skanky skank.
Incidentally while I take absolute amusement in this, it makes me terribly sad that fourteen-year-old girls might be calling each other that. My goodness.
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| Friends Only |
[Thursday, May 14th, 2009 @ 9:26pm] |
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My daughter has a fansite!?
She's been on a couple episodes of that show they shoot at Ivy Vinter's house because they're our neighbors and she's friends with Kismet. And she has fans. I...this is too weird.
I love the show! That one friend of Kismet's, that girl Lydia is totally fine.
And that girl Lydia totally has a father that will totally wring your neck!
*grumbles*
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| To Those in the Know |
[Tuesday, May 12th, 2009 @ 11:20pm] |
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Aly's going to be okay. She'll probably be home in about a week.
I can't wait!
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| Filtered to Aly |
[Monday, May 11th, 2009 @ 10:20pm] |
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Oh good fuck, I miss you.
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| To Those in the Know |
[Monday, May 11th, 2009 @ 9:11pm] |
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So much can happen in an instant that changes everything forever. Today I listened to my cousin screaming in my ear about how betrayed she was because her best friend's husband turned out to be something no one had seen coming. And I hurt for her and for Isabelle and for everyone else touched by such a thing. I remember finding out the Thomas I had been speaking to and confiding in and laughing with...at least from a distance, wasn't really Thomas. And perhaps Amaris and Aurelia did right to keep away from me then because I might have known the difference, and perhaps I might not have. Either way, I remember how betrayed and misled I felt then. And that...that doesn't even compare to this.
Things can change for the better in an instant too, and that is what I am trying to remind myself. My dear cousin Johan spoke words of truth to his fellow human beings and they responded with understanding and compassion. They acquitted him of a crime that could have seen him in prison for a very long time. Deirdre made...perhaps an ill-judged trip, yes, but in doing so, she found our beloved Thomas and returned him to us. Flynn, choose to aid my darling Tasha instead of running down the stairs in Little Moscow, and ended up helping her rather a lot. My beautiful daughter Anna told me they talked about homelessness in school today, and when she got home she gathered up two bags of things she wants to donate to less fortunate children. And when Lydia and Caleb heard what she was doing, they joined in too and there are now seven bags full of donations sitting by our front door. I couldn't be prouder of my children for the love and kindness they show at every chance they get.
All these things, however big or small, they can change the course of a life and not just mine. I want to remember that. Everything I do, it could change the course of a life forever. And I will do whatever I can to ensure that my actions lead to goodness and happiness. I think that is something many people could do with thinking about.
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| Filtered to David, Abby, Thomas, Spectre, Tasha and Isabella |
[Sunday, May 10th, 2009 @ 3:25pm] |
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Aly doesn't remember trying to end her life. She told me flat out today that it didn't happen when I mentioned it. I spoke to her doctor, and she believes that Aly has repressed the memory. But this does explain why they aren't releasing her yet. Aly's getting quite frustrated with being there still, when she feels she's worked through everything. But clearly she hasn't.
This one is so out of my league...
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| Filtered to Spectre |
[Thursday, May 7th, 2009 @ 1:53pm] |
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Thomas told me to let you (and little James) know that he's here. He was worried when he didn't show up at home right away after he went shopping. Which does mean your groceries are here too...
I've been expecting this since he returned. He hadn't come to see me until today, and I think it was because he needed to wait because the second he got here, he broke down. He needed to break down. He was stuck in darkness for months, and he said he didn't want any of you to have to deal with his issues relating to that. Which I told him was bollocks, but I think that's more of my influence seeping into his personality. So sorry!
He also mentioned he was worried about you? Are you alright, Adrian?
Thomas says he will return to you soon, he just needs to collect himself. And the groceries.
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| Friends Only |
[Monday, May 4th, 2009 @ 7:55pm] |
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Girl: Would you be mad if I became a dominatrix? It's not like I'd let the guys go down on me. It's a better option than prostitution.
Guy: Or you could just *not* do sex work, since you have a PhD.
My wife just sent me the link to this... I feel I should worry, though I'm not entirely sure which part I'm supposed to play there...
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| To Those in the Know |
[Tuesday, April 28th, 2009 @ 4:27pm] |
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I spoke to Aly. Everything is going to be okay. We worked through a lot of things, and there's still stuff to be worked on, but at least it will be. I was there for about four hours and we talked about what we've been doing, and about the kids. She's doing pretty well, and I think she'll be doing a lot better after today. I sat with her while she had a meal. She only seemed to have a little trouble with it. And I promised to go back tomorrow. And the day after that. And the one after that.
You get the picture.
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| To Those in the Know |
[Monday, April 27th, 2009 @ 2:04pm] |
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I went to see Johan today. I sat with him for some time. Several hours. He asked me not to leave, because he wanted to sleep without being afraid. I have never seen someone so beaten, and I have seen much. And yet he's not giving up. He told me to tell you all. He's not giving up because he promised he wouldn't. He was speaking with Gabriel when I arrived, even though I have no doubt it hurts him to talk. He wanted to work on his case. And then he spoke to me. He says they've given him morphine for the pain, which is a relief. But they won't release him to my hospital. Bastards.
Seeing him so strong, even now...it makes me feel rather ashamed of my actions of late. I apologise for being as out of it as I have been. I have no excuse, and I will certainly make sure to snap out of it. If Johan can fight, so can I.
So can we all.
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| To Those in the Know |
[Thursday, April 23rd, 2009 @ 1:52pm] |
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We're back at Liz's, just so you know where to find us.
And I sorted the money issues with Aly. She was fine about it. Helpful, in fact. She's still leaving me, but at least she didn't rob me blind, I guess.
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| To Those in the Know, away from Liz |
[Monday, April 20th, 2009 @ 6:18pm] |
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Liz wasn't mad about Svetlana.
She thought I got someone else pregnant, months ago. By force. And then told the girl that if she told anyone else, I would hurt her more.
Does that, in any way, sound like me? Because if it does, I might as well give up now. I would have assumed my sister, of all people, would know me better.
I still don't know how to respond to Liz, but in the meantime I've been able to ascertain what actually did happen. And, Tasha? I think I'll need your help for this one. Because the person who did do this is going to fucking pay for it.
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| Filtered to Liz |
[Sunday, April 19th, 2009 @ 10:11pm] |
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Can I come over there and talk to you about this?
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| To Those in the Know, away from Liz |
[Sunday, April 19th, 2009 @ 12:38am] |
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I just realised that now that I am not staying with Liz, I am so very, very screwed. I just used the last of the money in my bank account to get a venue for Adrian, and I have no money left. Everything...the bank accounts, the house...all of it is in Aly's name and I'm not on any of the accounts because...you know...I totally died that once for a few days. It never mattered, but it sure as hell matters now! I have seven kids! Seven kids who I do not want to starve!
I can't use the money in the hospital account if I want to pay my staff. I'm going to end up overdrawn on the one account that was in my name if I buy a chocolate bar.
Goddamn. I've never been broke before. I might be panicking...
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| To Those in the Know, away from Liz |
[Saturday, April 18th, 2009 @ 11:36pm] |
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I'm back at home now. I think Liz is possessed. She attacked me. Which...I guess I sort of understand.
No, you know what, no I don't. My life is my life. And if she takes offense to it, she should talk to me like an adult, not slap me around. I would never hurt her. I can't and won't fight back. Which does tend to make it pretty one-sided... And then I fell on my arse.
Svetlana? If you want to join me, I'm here. The kids are still at Jacinta and Edward's so at least they didn't witness the showdown. If you'd like, I can take you out to dinner?
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| To Those in the Know |
[Thursday, April 16th, 2009 @ 10:22pm] |
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To add insult to injury...Ryn called me a little while ago, stating he had vital information to convey. I heard a gun and I believe he was shot... A man called him an 'infidel' which means it has to be Templar.
Werner and now this. Too much for one day.
He was just about to tell me something important too...
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| Filtered to David |
[Thursday, April 16th, 2009 @ 7:19pm] |
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I slept with Svetlana.
Please don't beat me up again.
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