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[Friday, May 6th, 2011 @ 11:34pm]
[ mood | relieved ]

Deirdre's home, she's staying with me for a few days. She's just fine.

And Madame Butterfly is no more.

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To Those in the Know [Sunday, December 19th, 2010 @ 12:25pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

I died again.

It was kind of amusing.

What is not amusing is having a very sick nephew. Next time I'm rushing down the stairs, I'll probably be more careful about...not tripping.

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To Those in the Know minus Ben [Wednesday, November 10th, 2010 @ 12:41am]
[ mood | accomplished ]

I told my dad off!!!!!

Also, he's in a bit of pain. So now I get to discover why he's stuck here, judging my fashion choices with his eyes.

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To Those in the Know [Saturday, November 6th, 2010 @ 1:04am]
[ mood | contemplative ]

Business with the Templar (which went mostly fine by the way, though Razvan would probably enjoy a card or three as he got a little roughed up) brought us to Chile recently, and ever since I got back, Caleb has been telling me about Chile non-stop. He had to study Chile for school. He seems quite keen to inform me of all the things I missed. And I realised I was there and I didn't take in any of it. I never do. Not Nova Prata or any of the places in Romania or Chile, I don't consider myself as having been to any of them. The Templar have tainted all of it.

Also, a friend of mine, Father Kilpatrick, suggested that I go with him to Vatican City next month. He is helping me finish up my thesis, and he has been a wonderful advisor over the years. He isn't in the know, as far as I know. He simply has certain opinions on the danger of fanaticism that are in line with mine. Of course, the second he suggested I go with him to Vatican City, I might have made a flimsy excuse and run away from him and then called up Saul to have Dead Meat check him out. He was clean, by the way. But I refuse to go back to that place.

I think spending three weeks in a hole under the ground of someplace would do that to anyone.

So...I suppose my rather obvious and rambling point is that travelling does not equal the Templar. Well. That and I have issues, but who is surprised there?

As soon as certain familial obligations negate themselves and the children are on holiday, the family and I are off to Valencia for some quiet time. Would anyone like to come along?

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To Those in the Know minus Ben, Noah and the Waterhouses [Wednesday, October 6th, 2010 @ 11:07pm]
[ mood | weird ]

I punched my dad.

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To Those in the Know minus Ben, Noah and the Waterhouses [Sunday, October 3rd, 2010 @ 7:32pm]
[ mood | intimidated ]

So my father is here. It's a really long story which is confusing and it avoids the main issue anyway.

Which is that my father is here.

Ben can't know.

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Filtered to Ben [Friday, October 1st, 2010 @ 10:52pm]
[ mood | uncomfortable ]


Ben, I really enjoy having you as my brother. Getting to know you has been wonderful and I look forward to continuing to know you in the future.

I need you to trust me and don't come over for the next three weeks without calling me first. I've already explained to Lydia that she shouldn't have Andy over and I spoke to Noah. I will explain why to you if you ask, but please...trust me that you don't want to know. It's nothing dangerous at all and you can still call if you'd like and I can come over there if you want. It's just very important you don't come here.

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To Those in the Know [Monday, September 20th, 2010 @ 9:36pm]
[ mood | worried ]

Flynn left me a note this afternoon to say that he's left and not to look for him. This, of course, means I'm looking for him because I am terrible at letting people go. And I worry.

Apparently I worry other people too. Today I sort of maybe might have been thrown into a wall ish. Abby insisted on x-raying my everything (I think I may start to believe she just wants to see if she can make me glow) and there was a shadow in my brain. One CAT-scan later, and it was nothing. Why does everyone assume that any time something happens, it's cancer!? I don't have cancer right now. You all make me nervous!

I should be resting but instead I'm going on a Flynn hunt. I was never good at doing what I should.

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[Thursday, September 9th, 2010 @ 1:37pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

Well fuck.


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To Those in the Know [Thursday, August 19th, 2010 @ 11:21pm]
[ mood | discontent ]

Aly's home.

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To Those in the Know [Tuesday, August 17th, 2010 @ 10:59pm]
[ mood | distressed ]

So...not to freak any one out or anything, but if anyone sees my wife, could you call me or send her home?

She had a bad night last night and she hasn't come home yet. She doesn't have her phone with her.


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To Those in the Know away from Deirdre [Monday, August 16th, 2010 @ 1:46am]
[ mood | guilty ]

Right. Knew that ridiculously happy mood wasn't going to last.

Deirdre just punched me in the face.

So...if you happen to express your concern about her upcoming nuptials...? Duck.

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[Sunday, August 15th, 2010 @ 6:55pm]
[ mood | happy ]

I am forty years old, and I am finally able to live my life.

Incredible, isn't it?

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To Those in the Know [Sunday, August 8th, 2010 @ 12:55am]
[ mood | peaceful ]

I'm at home. Last night I had eight hours of uninterrupted sleep, and today I ate three square meals and spent all day with my kids and my wife. I had a vision and when it happened, I didn't even drop the cup of tea I was having. There was no pain. I stood still, saw what I needed to see, and proceeded over to the phone to call Razvan who was able to save a young woman who needed saving. All without drama (well...other than the poor girl's, but I have been assured she's fine) or pain or far too much attention paid to yours truly because I fell into something or on something or bled from something.

Is this how being normal feels? I mean...aside from the vision. Waking up refreshed and actually eating before I suddenly realise it's midnight and I've forgotten to eat a thing?

Jesus H. Christ, says the ex-priest. I never knew life could be this good.

And tomorrow (since it is after midnight on the 8th) it's my birthday. I will be turning 40. Since I am feeling as good as I am, we're having a party on the family yacht. You're all welcome if you can read this. There won't be alcohol, sorry, but plenty of food and drinks and music and fun. The boat is big enough for people to mill around. I really look forward to seeing you all there if you can make it.

The world is such a wonderful place to be in right now.

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To Those in the Know [Friday, August 6th, 2010 @ 12:31am]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

I can't believe it.

Yesterday the brilliant Yvonne came to me and she gave me a drug they'd been testing to allow me to have the visions without causing pain.

I've had three visions since yesterday, and every single one of them was absolutely pain free. I'm feeling great. I slept and I ate and I'm acting like a real human being for the first time in probably years, and it's so wonderful I could cry.

I actually did. I know I'm an emotional basketcase.

I'm in the hospital for one more day, just to make sure there's no side-effects. I miss home, but this is so worth it. Those visions and they pain they bring had plagued me for three years. Ever since they decided just interrupting my sleep wasn't enough and they have to invade my waking life too.

I am so buying Yvonne a car.

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To Those in the Know [Monday, August 2nd, 2010 @ 5:28pm]
[ mood | Better ]

Lucian is a genius.

I'm feeling much better. Lucian found a way to stop the visions (for now) so my poor head can heal. I'm still in a lot of pain but, as you can see, I'm able to...you know...function. I spent the morning with my family and it was exactly what I needed.

Now I feel ridiculous to be confined to this bed, but I've been told if I leave it, I'm in Serious Trouble. And I do what I'm told because Aly and Abby mean Serious Business.

Sleeping for a week doesn't actually sound that bad, though. Nor does eating...everything.

Anyway. I just wanted to say hello.

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To Those in the Know [Sunday, July 25th, 2010 @ 1:44am]
[ mood | impressed ]

I'm still in the hospital and now Thomas is asleep on top of me.


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To Those in the Know [Saturday, July 24th, 2010 @ 12:57am]
[ mood | Dying ]


If you need me, I'm at the hospital bleeding from everywhere.

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Filtered to Ben [Tuesday, July 20th, 2010 @ 9:58pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

Noah got his cast off and he walked today. No crutches or anything else. He walked across the room and he's been practising since then.

I thought you would want to know.

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To Those in the Know [Wednesday, July 14th, 2010 @ 5:19pm]
[ mood | busy ]

I've got some stuff to finish up at the office. If I don't come home tonight, I haven't been kidnapped.

Though if someone calls every once in awhile to make sure, I would appreciate that...

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[Monday, July 12th, 2010 @ 7:13pm]
[ mood | amused ]

My wife is so excited that Spain won the world cup, that she sort of attacked me with happy dancing, spoke in rapidfire Spanish, and then proceeded to make twelve kinds of Spanish food.

So. Spain party at my house?

We have paella. And everything.

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[Thursday, July 8th, 2010 @ 8:55pm]
[ mood | amused ]

I tried to go into my kitchen this afternoon and was summarily thrown out by Serenity, who was using it to make jelly shots for birthdays. I don't think my kitchen has ever been used to make jelly shots before...

Now the doors are blockaded and I can't help but be amused that I am being excluded from my own kitchen.

I'm not that desperate for a drink, guys. Or a...wiggly, alcoholic thingy. A simple 'no touching the jelly shots' would have worked.

Today, anyway.

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To Those in the Know [Monday, July 5th, 2010 @ 9:43am]
[ mood | blah ]

I had my head examined. After the events of the past few days, it sort of seemed prudent. Apparently my body has...I don't know, evolved (take that, religious fundamentalists) so that if I take my anti-convulsant pills, I can still have visions, they just don't knock me out.

If course, in doing so, they are absolutely terrible to experience and every time I have one, and I have had several now, I think my head is coming apart. And there's still the risk of my brain imploding. This is such a joy. I made a list, because Liz told me to, of pros and cons for staying on the meds.

Pros~ The visions don't send me into a seizure. I get warning so I can pull over to the side of the road or drop what I am doing before it comes upon me. They take less time to recover from at least regarding consciousness.

Cons~ Unconscious visions don't hurt as much.

And that was sort of the only con I could find. But now I can't tell if thinking my own pain is secondary to everything is only because I was raised Catholic.

But at least there's no tumour. And, for the moment, no bleeds. I'm not dying today. And for that, I'm grateful.

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To Those in the Know [Friday, July 2nd, 2010 @ 6:16pm]
[ mood | moody ]

As the primary issue has been taken care of here, I can take the time to do this.

I had a vision today. I don't know how it happened, as I have been taking my medication and I haven't been drinking, I really promise. One still got through, though I am so relieved it did. I didn't lose consciousness either. Usually I have a seizure and while I'm unconscious I have the vision. I was awake this time. And bleeding from everywhere, but moving on.

I saw a demon attacking a cafe. We managed to clear the cafe out, thanks to the rather lovely manager knowing me. Serenity offered to host the cafe's normal poetry reading at her house (sorry, Razvan. Actually, could you come meet me at Mariposa?) which means the people who would have been at the cafe are safe.

Now I just have to wait until dark to deal with the demon.

If I disappear you come looking for me, I am not kidding. Check the Northern castle first.

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Filtered to Noah, Serenity, Daria and Ben [Friday, July 2nd, 2010 @ 3:32pm]
[ mood | working ]

Noah, did you have plans to go out to a cafe with Serenity and...I think it was a Godric tonight? I believe the cafe was called Mariposa? If you do, I need to tell you not to go. You know...please. I have to try to stop something bad from happening there, but in the instance that I don't, it would be best if you weren't anywhere near there.

And I'm sorry for involving you, Daria and Ben. I just thought you wouldn't like to be shut out of something involving Noah.

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Friends Only [Wednesday, June 30th, 2010 @ 6:46pm]
[ mood | Dying ]

So tired.

Can't even hold a pencil. Keep hallucinating things. Zombies and...penguins. Penguins who sing. And deliver pizza. Pizza which isn't real. Fucking bastardly penguins with their fake pizza.

If anything real bad happens, call me. If not? I'm sleeping.

....I hope.

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Friends Only [Tuesday, June 29th, 2010 @ 6:25pm]
[ mood | sore ]

So, I had an interesting day at work. I went in and I was all happy. It was a nice, sunny, summer day. I was feeling frisky this morning, so I had an iced coffee on a whim. Because I'm just a happenin' guy like that.

Then I got to work, I got told that I have to wear a mask because the medication I am on means apparently my immune system is compromised so Abby made me wear the mask and then I went to see a patient and she jumped on me and tried to claw my eyes out. I'm glad I'm more resilient than I look. If I had thought about it for three seconds, I would have realised the mask was a dumb way to go. Augh. So now my face is lovely and scratched.

It's never boring at RMMH.

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Friends Only, No kids [Sunday, June 27th, 2010 @ 4:10pm]
[ mood | Politely Confused ]

...I may have woken up this morning on the bedroom floor, wearing women's knickers.

I do not understand how this happened or what is going on, but it did lead to some early morning philosophising...

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To Those in the Know [Tuesday, June 22nd, 2010 @ 10:15am]
[ mood | exhausted ]

It's been very nice having Noah over here often lately. He was showing magic tricks to Caleb, and I am just a little bit terrified Caleb will try the sparkler tricks with matches. Anything incendiary is quite hidden, but Caleb has the insane ability to climb anything. The shelves in the attic are twelve feet up and Aly found him at the top once, trying on hats he found in a box up there. We've had the no matches and no climbing tall shelves talk, but you never know... Caleb was quite fond of the sparkler trick. Though he's been pulling coins out of baby Lauren's ears all day and Lauren loves it. She laughs. Considering how rare that is, coin tricks might be the best invention ever. Thank you, Noah!

I'm quite tired. I don't think I've slept more than a few hours in the last month. Whenever I sleep, I dream, and those turn into visions and wake me up. And I'm starting to not understand the messages. The images are...intangible.

I just want to sleep.

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Friends Only [Saturday, June 12th, 2010 @ 3:41am]
[ mood | optimistic ]

Tonight Ben, Noah and Andy came over for dinner and we inundated them with family and Spanish food. Jeremy came over, which was good. It was nice to see him. Liz brought her troops too. Johan came as well, which was absolutely wonderful. And Tasha came home from the hospital today, so she was able to be here, which meant we were also joined by Katia. It was really nice to have a room full of family. And I do mean full. We were in the dining room, which is blessedly large, though I'm thinking the next gathering should probably take place at the manor house. Liz is a better host than I am anyway!

I have to say, watching my wife fangirl one brother (Ben) while she sits in the other brother's lap (Jeremy, they're always in cahoots)? Strangely amusing. And then she had one too many caramel cremes and started speaking rapidfire Spanish. Ah, sugar. Anna entertained us by dancing to music Lydia played on the piano. And then Caleb let the dogs in and all descended into something like brilliant chaos.

And I think Cardinal Sin stole my shoe because I still can't find it.

I hope you all had a nice time?

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To Those in the Know [Sunday, June 6th, 2010 @ 8:49pm]
[ mood | restless ]

My best friend's son is missing, and I have never seen Thomas so very...lost. And I have seen Thomas a great many ways. I understand, of course. If it were my child-

And I have to admit to feeling a little like it is. James is a child Thomas had with my ex-girlfriend (don't get me started...) and my name used to be on the birth certificate. For two years, he was legally my child, not that I knew he existed. One DNA test later and the certificate is fixed now, but I still feel connected to him.

I just realised how messed up my life sounds. Hmm.

That sweet little boy is missing and I can't stand it. I want to fight for him. For my best friend. I was sent home by my beautiful wife after 30 odd hours of running around the city searching. I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't stop.

But just maybe, if I could dream, I could find him.

Why the fucking fuck then, can't I dream? I would toss my pills away, but I'd be in the doghouse for weeks. I try to sleep, but it's not happening. And I don't want to risk a sleeping aid. It might skew any visions that did come.

Argh, someone come sing me a lullaby or read me the goddamn Bible or something. Anything to put me to sleep.

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Friends Only [Wednesday, June 2nd, 2010 @ 11:27pm]
[ mood | pleased ]

I went to my brother Ben's house for dinner last night and it was a rather nice time! I did us all a favour and brought along something I did not make. It was for the best. And Lydia and Andy had a conversation I didn't have a chance of understanding, and I speak eight languages. It just went by so fast. I thought Aly and her family talked fast. My god.

And just what in the hell is an arpats? I feel like this is vital information I am missing out on here...

Noah is doing well, which made me happy! And Ben and I had a conversation about Mesopotamia which I understood and loved a little too much, I think. History is so fascinating. And Andy and Lydia told us to stop being boring.

I am so last century with my strange ways and my groovy love of history. I should wear tweed. And elbow patches. But jeans are so much nicer.

...I have no idea what that was. I was going to say it was a lovely evening and then I came home and my wife greeted me with pie and my son Caleb told me to call him dude instead of darling because it's 'mannier'. So little Tommy decided he wants to be Little Dude. And now he only answers if you address him as such. Anna has gone on point in ballet class, so it's dancing and tutus all over the house, and now William wants to be 'a ballerina too'. I'm not going to try to explain that one to him... He has one of Anna's tutus and he seems very happy with it. Oh, and then Lauren vomited on my favourite sweater, but she smiled at me after so I forgave her.

I don't think I will get any sleep any time in the near future. My family is wonderful, amazing, and never stops.

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Private [Monday, May 31st, 2010 @ 1:33am]
[ mood | sympathetic ]

Oh, Kat.

I know how you feel.

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Friends Only [Sunday, May 30th, 2010 @ 9:54pm]
[ mood | weird ]

I spent the afternoon with my brother, who thought it would be a good idea to try to take me to a bar to relax. No, Jeremiah. 'No' translated as 'my wife will make me sleep on the sofa and my daughter will blank me and I hate that but I wish I could say yes'. Anyway, alcoholism aside, we spent the day together and it was nice. Jeremy may have made fun of me because I like walking through Regents Park, but I think that is because he believes walking without a purpose to be a waste of time... We had a nice lunch and he took me to see a terrifying movie I will never be able to bleach from my brain, but he enjoyed it even though it made me feel very sleepy because it was about nightmares or something. And then he came home and got my children all hyper, because they adore their Uncle Jeremy. Even Lauren, who doesn't adore many people. She has an Uncle Jeremy squeak which might be the most darling thing ever, but I am biased and think most everything they do is incredibly adorable anyway.

Then Jeremy and I stopped by my office and we were joined by a Thomas who sat in my very stunned lap for ten minutes before actually crawling up on my desk and curling up into a ball. (I should state here that I do, in fact, mean Thomas Littleton and not my son, Tommy, in which case this all would make a lot more sense.) I don't really know what happened there, but he said he was fine. He just...wanted an appropriate curling surface, I suppose. Jeremy decorated him with confetti from my three-hole-puncher, why, I do not know. Thomas said it made him feel festive. While curled up on office furniture.

He's still here, and I'm unsure what to do with him, beyond hanging paperclips off of his jacket. I don't want to leave him here. He looks quite peaceful but what if he rolls off and hurts himself!

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To Those in the Know [Sunday, May 23rd, 2010 @ 8:37pm]
[ mood | blah ]

I suppose I should talk about it now.

I was gone for a few days, obviously. I was being held captive by someone wearing Svetlana's face. It was horrible and I think that hurt more than anything else that happened there. It was horrifying and there was an iron maiden involved and lalala I died again, I'm totally beating you, Lucas.

But beyond that, I was in a place where I couldn't take my medication and I had several visions. They were all of one man..or it could have been a woman, I suppose. The being was clearly a demon because they had wings, but they were wearing a plague doctor mask. I couldn't see their face, but whoever this demon is, they're bad news. Bad bad news. I didn't see any specifics, but we have to be really careful. Please. If you see anything weird or untoward, ring me immediately. After getting to a safe place, of course. A public area where...you know...people are bound to notice someone in a plague mask...

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To Those in the Know [Friday, May 21st, 2010 @ 4:54pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

I'm home.

I don't want to talk about it. I'm going to go eat a metric fucktonne of food and sleep for three weeks.

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Friends Only [Thursday, May 13th, 2010 @ 10:42pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]

My daughter, Anna, just punched me in the crotch. When I asked her why on Earth she would do such a thing, she informed me that I told her to. "You said when someone tried to make me do something I don't want to do, I should punch them in the crotch." Though what I actually said was if someone tried to take advantage of her and tried to make her do something she didn't want to do...you know, icky, she should punch them in the crotch. That is not the same thing as crotch punching because I told her to clean her room.

Dear God, she's thirteen and it's starting. It's starting.

So now I'm grumpy and she's grumpy and grounded and cursing my name in German which is much more effective than English. She did, in fact, scream that I wasn't her father.


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To Those in the Know, Miles, Sabine and Ben [Monday, May 10th, 2010 @ 4:33pm]
[ mood | worried ]

My lovely Uncle Wolfgang called me today and at first I thought he just wanted to terrorise me because that's what he does best. But no, he's after someone else.

I know some of you might have met my cousin Sabine at my wedding. Met or...were treated with disdain by... She's a seer like I am, only kind Uncle Wolfgang doesn't understand it. He thought her predictions were witchcraft or some bollocks and he tried to exorcise her and of course she ran away. Today he informed me he sent a bounty hunter after her. His own daughter. Though I shouldn't be surprised, he feeds people to lions. Not...not a metaphor.

Apparently the bounty hunter has stopped checking in and now he's sent another. He asked me if I had seen her, as if I would admit to it if I had. Sure, I'll turn her over to a psychopath, even if she is a bit of a handful.

If you know where Sabine is, or you see her, please tell her to take care. If you can reach her, Miles, please warn her. And if you can read this Sabine, please be careful. He did not sound like he was looking for a kind reunion...

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Filtered to Abby [Sunday, May 9th, 2010 @ 6:39pm]
[ mood | worried ]

Hi, Abby.

Have a look. http://hereprophetslie.livejournal.com/5140.html?thread=41236#t41236

As far as I know, Ben hasn't mentioned we're related. And while I don't mind at all that Noah wants me around...rather the opposite...does this seem a little strange to you? Like he might be seeing me as someone who can protect him and if I'm not there, he feels unsafe?

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Friends Only [Saturday, May 8th, 2010 @ 11:31pm]
[ mood | melancholy ]

I drooled on Thomas today. I fell asleep on him, in his bed, and drooled.

I am completely smooth.

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