|Private-then opened to those in the know
||[19 Oct 2006|09:01pm]
October 19th, 2006
I have so many thoughts about everything that's happened recently, and it's hard to know what to write. One of the people I love most in this world has been dreadfully wronged. She allowed herself to be raped to save her humanity. To save her friends. I'd like to think if I were in her position I would have been so brave, but I don't know. She made an incredible sacrifice and I still haven't once heard her say she wished she hadn't done it. Of course she wishes it hadn't happened. So does everyone. But that she doesn't wish she'd stopped him and lost her control over the demon inside, that shows incredible strength.
I think everyone could learn a lot from Deirdre Gallagher. She has a lot to give. And I'm proud to know that she's not going to stop giving.
I suppose one of the reasons I'm being over protective of Deirdre is because I have someone else's memories inside my head. I have Lauren's memories even though she was only with me for a few short minutes, and she was victimised. I know how it feels even though it's never happened to me. Which is an altogether terrifying feeling and I'm going to ignore it until it goes away.
I can't think about this anymore. I think this is a good way to do it. Get as much of it out as will come out at a time so I can be strong for all of them.
Everyone's doing the best they can.