November 18th, 2006


Filtered to Deirdre

I'm so sorry I wasn't here yesterday, Sweetheart. I didn't even know any of this was going on. Deirdre, you don't deserve Kait's fear. Renee has already made that clear to you. That doesn't change the fact that she's afraid. It's unfounded, but that doesn't mean it doesn't exsist. While I wish just saying 'don't be afraid' would work, it won't. You have to show her, and I know you don't feel like you should have to, but isn't Kait worth it? I was, remember? I was so afraid I would bring you all harm and I was wrong and you knew it and you all kept right on showing me until you got through. Just be your wonderful amazing self and Kait will see.

As for why I wasn't here, Aly had to go to hospital. It seems a girl from you Uni with a rather weird name has it in for David. Agates...Amandtis. It's something like that. She sent Aly a poisioned muffin through David and Remy Baudrillard. I want you to be very very careful. Apparently she was close to Richard O'Doherty. If she's capable of trying to get to David by coming through his pregnant sister, I have no doubt she could try to harm you through people you love too. We've contacted the police, but considering how well they've handled things like this in the past, I still feel I need to make you aware of it.

Aly and the baby will be fine, by the way. Love you, Deirdre.
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I wanted to kill someone today. This girl who plays with people's lives. She tried to kill the woman who will be my wife and my unborn child. She came at them in revenge. They are innocents in this. We're all innocents in this and she came at them anyway. My child would be dead right now if it were not for the fact that it's inherited a certain quailty of mine that protects it from death. Not that I'm pleased to discover that trait has been passed on, but I'm so relieved the child is alright. That girl would be dead if it weren't for Deirdre. Deirdre held me back. A demon held me back from doing violence to a 21 year old girl. A terrible girl, but a girl nonetheless. The irony is not lost on me. I never thought I would be capable of that. To let anger take me until I lose control. But I almost did. And god I wanted to. I still want to. But I won't. I'll try to handle this the correct way. The usual way. The right way. But it's hard when it's personal. I've been talking to these demons like it's easy, and suddenly someone threatens my happiness and the people I love and I understand the rage. I always knew it wasn't easy to quell anger within yourself, but I've glimpsed just a taste of what they must feel everyday and it's terrifying.

I feel for every single one of them. And it only makes me want to help them all the more.
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