December 4th, 2006

Desolation

To Those in the Know-Filtered away from Liz

I've been sitting here staring at this empty white box trying to figure out what to say for the longest time. How can I even approach expressing how I feel? How this feels? Everything was wonderful and incredible and this family was happy and it's all been taken away by something so stupid and trivial. Of all the things I thought this family had to fear...that was not one of them. Demon attacks and vampire attacks and crazy fucking angels that jump off buildings, sure. Thomas? Never. Never.

And now I feel horrible because I made them leave. I love Elizabeth. She's my sister and she means so much to me and Thomas and Emma hurt her. I kicked them out and now I don't know if they're alright. That worries me, and I'm angry that I have to be worried about them because I feel like they shouldn't deserve it.

I've felt this betrayed in my life only once before. And I'm not the one who was betrayed here. Kat and Liz are. But I feel for them and I hurt for them and Hope.

I wish I could fix this.
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