|To Those in the Know
||[16 Mar 2007|02:39am]
Everyone's asleep now. Christina is in with Aly and William's in the guestroom. Thomas is with Kat and Tasha's in her room. I can hear the darling Rosa snoring. And I can't sleep so I was reading back on the things I'd written as I often do. It's easy to forget the things we've learned and it's always a good idea to read through them so we can remember where I've been. That's why I've kept my journals for some many years. I found this though which used to be private and now it's not, and I don't know how I feel about it. I don't know how I should feel.
I don't feel all heroic, like Deirdre was. Not at all. More...violated but dealing I think.
I visited Svetlana today and we talked. I think I got through to her. Or we made progress anyway. She explained her feelings and I finally understood. And I explained mine and she apologised. She says she's happy. She likes it when I try. She called Thomas her best friend. She was sad he has to go. She smiled and made me laugh. I laughed with her. Thomas says he's going to miss her. She killed him and he'll miss her. And she...did whatever she did to me...and I laughed with her.
And I don't understand any of it for a second. I'm completely confused. I hope that's acceptable.
Oh and Tasha pierced my ear. Well she didn't do it herself, but she took me to the place and they did the thing.