April 20th, 2008


To Those in the Know

Apparently I'm losing my mind. Fantastic. I spoke to Lydia and explained that it's not her, it's me. Me and my fun dreams of funness.

There's something else too, which I wanted to wait to talk about until after weddings and everything. I keep having seizures...usually I don't go for two days without having one in varying degrees of seriousness. And Abby tried something called a stress test. She wanted to see if it was the visions triggering the seizures or the other way around. She was able to bring about a seizure, which caused me to have a vision. Which means she thinks it's a physical problem. Like, my brain still hasn't healed completely or...it's just not going to. There's a chance it's just going to stay like this because it's not a fatal problem, and it's not something that...I don't know, I'm not a doctor. All I know is that I never had any of this before Bonsai and now I do. And most of the time, the visions I have during the seizures are just of a girl, sitting there, doing nothing. So I'm not seeing anything of any real value. And I do go through periods of time where I am sensitive to sounds or smells like I was when I had the tumour. I haven't forgotten who anyone is again. But I do continue to do odd things every one in awhile.

It's disconcerting at best. But I have had it checked out. It's not another tumor. And the hospital is working on it. In the meantime, I think I need to hire a bloody driver. Look how I am not impressed...
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