January 17th, 2009

Oh so Down

To Those in the Know

Taking anti-convulsive medication is so frustrating when you wish you could be having visions. I haven't been sleeping enough to dream, and I can't have visions when I'm awake so I have NO idea if there's more I should know about this whole...Thomas thing, and it's annoying.

Not that I am not relieved to not be seeing visions of my best friend in pain, I do have to admit.

I want to go off the stupid pills. But last time I had a vision while I was awake, I ended up comatose on the kitchen floor with a bleed in my brain, lying in all sorts of liquids I'd rather not think about.

Focus on the encouraging. I really think I'm making headway with Evan. He spoke to Katia! That's the first thing he's said to anyone who isn't me in...I think ever? Since I knew him when he was a boy anyway. It was pretty extraordinary.
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