Father Peter Kemp (father_peter) wrote,
Father Peter Kemp

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To Those in the Know

I meant to write this yesterday, but I was preoccupied by other things. I've always been self-reflective, for better or worse. It's something they teach you in the clergy. And when I think about this year, I realise there's a lot to reflect on. I brought in 2006 by sitting alone in my office in Melk, wishing I could hear my daughter's voice and knowing I couldn't. I was utterly alone in that place. Robert was a dear friend, but no one understood. Now I have so many amazing people around me that understand. I'm not the only one with the knowledge I have. It's not a burden anymore.

I met demons and angels and people this year and one important lesson I learned is that whatever title or catergory we're shifted in to, it doesn't matter. What matters is on the inside. I've seen angels do horrifying things and I've seen demons show the most remarkable love and kindness. I've seen humans show such amazing bravery and loyalty. Labels aren't important, it's the heart. It's what we do with what we're given. Abuse of power isn't allowable just because you have white wings, and just because someone's eyes go black doesn't mean they're only out to harm.

I've learned that passionate love doesn't always mean eternal love. I've learned that friends long since dead can still teach the most important of lessons. I've learned that loss of love isn't the end of anything at all, the potential for a new beginning. I've learned that even the people that seem the most lost can be found again if someone just tries to reach them with kindness instead of revenge. I've learned that wounds heal, as do broken bones, and the people who said laughter is the best medicine weren't entirely right. Family is. Friends are. Love is. Laughter is just part of that.

I have also learned that Deirdre kicks incredibly hard, but sometimes I deserve it.

I've made horrible mistakes and been pulled back...and cut down...from some dangerous situations. I know I have friends who would do anything for me and I would do anything for them. I have been an angel, only to become Peter again minutes later. I have lost loved ones, but I will continue to honour their memory. I've achieved great things as well this year, though never on my own. I know I never want to be on my own again. If you had told me at the beginning of 2006, that by the end I'd be married to an utterly incredible woman and live in a house with my 4 children and a 5th on the way...I probably would have asked you to save the admission that you were on drugs for confession.

Everyday I watch the ones I have surrounded myself with in awe. They're the most extraordinary group of people, and they never fail to impress me or make me proud. I have learned a great deal from them, and through all we've experienced this year. I hope I learn as much in 2007.
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