The emotional rollercoaster of the past 2 weeks has left me completely exhausted. I just...sort of feel hollow. It won't last. I think it's a defense mechanism. I need to feel nothing so I don't feel everything all at once. I don't want to sleep but I know if I don't, I won't learn anything more about Rosa. Also, insomia is never fun. Even if I did find out about Rosa, I could hardly jet off to Brazil. But what if she needs me? And I know Miriam does, but I can't get to her. And Caoilfhionn is too far away and I'm needed here too.
I can't think. There's just so much...
Talk to me? Come visit? Anything. Please?
EDIT: Oh right. I got alarms installed on the doors today. So...probably best not to just walk in from now on. Unless you want to be bleeped.
That sounds like I was bleeping an expletive. I wasn't.
drained