I don't feel all heroic, like Deirdre was. Not at all. More...violated but dealing I think.
I visited Svetlana today and we talked. I think I got through to her. Or we made progress anyway. She explained her feelings and I finally understood. And I explained mine and she apologised. She says she's happy. She likes it when I try. She called Thomas her best friend. She was sad he has to go. She smiled and made me laugh. I laughed with her. Thomas says he's going to miss her. She killed him and he'll miss her. And she...did whatever she did to me...and I laughed with her.
And I don't understand any of it for a second. I'm completely confused. I hope that's acceptable.
Oh and Tasha pierced my ear. Well she didn't do it herself, but she took me to the place and they did the thing.